2010!

yea so mom aint lettin me do Archaeology, she wants me to be a doc or sumthin like that... shes pathetic, and so is the rest of my family, here i am, 3 hours left to 2010 and im sulky, depressed and just wanna fall down and sink into earth. they dont know how it feels to be pushed around, people telling me whats right for me. thats wrong. they are telling me what they THINK is right for me. but its not right for me. i have 2 months left to decide my future and my mother has managed to train wreck the situation. theres a 98% chance i will give in to her whims and fancies. cause A)I just cant afford it
B)everyones on her side
C)there are no universities which actually have archaeology as subject in India

thats it. i wanna kill myself, thats my first option
my second option is to go ahead with my plan not really giving much importance to what the woman is saying. no one knows how clueless i am right now. she keeps bringing back prospectus' of Colleges and Universities which puke MBBS and BDS. so this i how my NEW YEAR is starting off...interesting :)

White Flag

Im done. done with dreams and fantasies. its not for me. from where i come, they want me to become what they wish i would become. i tried. i fought. its over. i give up. good bye

Comparison makes me sick

im tired of being compared with the rest of the world..i wanna be myself, face the fact bitch...i do things my way,and my way only, thats all that i could possily handle an if you dont like it, then thats your problem.

fixing things, fixing life

yea been working on my room, made it easily accessible, it was a pig sty before, now its pretty much sorted out and my study table actually looks like a study table now. been doing well with my studies and i actually put my CDs in a folder now lol it used to just lie around like shit. got to chat with pri like ages later an she told me about this book called "the vampire is just not that into you" lol i sooo have to check it out! i have always had this weird mad attraction for vampys >:) so yea busy fixing myself up, got a few months before the real shit starts :)